Torture.

If I'm not the only daughter, I think I will suicide now. I have been tortured in almost one year plus. I can see my life is full of hopeless. I really wish dooms day can come earlier. No one could understand my feeling, seriously. I hope I can meet someone who's really can cheer me up and always encourage me. I really hope I can die earlier, and I'm really not sure with every decision. I wish every decision I made is the right one. I think I'm really down right now. I thought my life will like a romantic love story? Something like: when im down, I go to airport alone and my books drop, a man help me to pick up the books and we fall In love. After he marry me and give me money every month. Wth, this wouldn't happen in life man. Our life is so damn cruel! No prince no love story, only have witches. Sometimes I really feel like wanna give up, but you know what? The begs make me feel like: my god, last chance. After that, damn, happen again. Wth, am I the only one who always get bad luck? And this is why I feel so hopeless in my life. Damn! Bye.